who AM i?

It's 2:08 A.M. and all I can do is sit here and wonder 2 things.

First one is the obvious..
WHY AM I NOT ASLEEP?

Second...
Who am I and why am I here?

I know I'm Hope Renee' Woolsey.
Single mommy of the best gift ever given to me.
Student.
Daughter.
Best friend.
Sister.
Singer.

But that's all I know.
Most of my friends could tell you more about me,
then i could tell you about me.
Then I start to think about it...
And even beginning to write an about me..
I just sit and stare at the screen for 20 minutes.
Asking myself WHO AM I?

If I don't know, then why should I ever expect anyone else to know me.

Just a crazy 2 am thought.

But then it starts to boil down to this..
Why do I get jealous of people who seem to be leading almost perfect lives?
Why can't I get the life that I want?
But writing all of this down...
I realize..
It's not my time yet.
If and when my "perfect life" comes around...
It'll be time..

I guess what I'm afraid of...
Is passing up that *perfect* time.
Meeting that ONE.

I need to try to stop forcing it.
and JUST let it happen.

But how?
How do you let it happen?

I know it's probably easier said then done...
But does anyone know how?

xx