trying..

HONESTLY, 
i had this whole thing planned out in my head for a blog post.. but i can NOT figure out how to word it.
so here's the deal.
i'm gonna ramble..
and you'll get a cupcake if you get to the end.
k?
k!

so -
today my pastor put my life in perspective whether he realizes it or not... he was saying how each one of us has our own song to our life.. and we're always looking for the next verse to it... i'm trying to figure out mine.. but what i need to do is let GOD write it for me. i ALWAYS try to push the process and then i end up not liking where it goes. so i'm going to let Him work it out for me now. i just have to have patience.. speaking of.. that's something else i need just in general. i have some.. but lately it's been on the EDGE. ugh... Lord, pleaaaaaase help me!! <3 


i really don't know what else to do other than leave it in His hands. i know He will lead me in the path of where i need to be. one thing i have started doing is, when i say "i'm going to take this road" or "i'm going to get this drink" or whatever, i just do it. i don't go with my second guess. i feel like there's a REASON that i do whatever my first instinct is. 


also - while i was at church today, i started thinking about how i am not fully following my dream. and that is music. i love doing hair. but i love music more. and that is the dream that really calls me back every single time. it doesn't matter what i do, i always start to think about how i wish i could do something with music. well i had a bright idea of a music/hair salon. so i was thinking about if anyone would like it.. i would LOVE it. i LOVE the thought of it.. so why not.. :D i'm sure other music lovers would love it just as much. but like.. i would do some theme for every day.. where like mondays could be something crazy like 80s day.. and so on.. and we could have special days where we also help out the needy. [: what would you think about it?! [:

yeah. i think that's about it.
if you made it.. well...

there's your promised cuppycake!

xx -

hope