wow.

i haven't blogged in a long time.
much to update... and much more to come soon.
and creating another blog tonight! [:

True Beauty

So, after I wrote my blog about self esteem, I came across a page on facebook called the True Beauty Movement. I want to write an essay and send it in. The topic is 'What is true beauty?'

I've been thinking a lot about this...

and I think I'm going to write it on here..
and then when I think it's good enough,
I'm going to send it in!!

But I believe True Beauty is...
who you are.
how you act.
how you love.
how you live.
what you do.
how you respect.

what do YOU think true beauty is?

I don't know about you..

But music is a life changer, mind reader, goal setter, amazing helping device.
Yeah, I ran out of '-ers' to add on to that.
I guess here lately, I've noticed more than usual how much life and moods are a part of how my day goes.

If I'm in my car, I'm pretty much going to listen to the radio or my iPod.
If I'm in my room blogging or something, I'll listen to worship music. It's my own time. My me time.
If I'm with Noah, it'll probably be something like Katy Perry or Mickey Mouse. How random right?
If I'm with my mom, well it's usually some reggaeton, or something like that.
If I'm in a sad mood, it's definitely Evanescence.
If I'm in my own world and ready to drive and listen to an amazing voice, it's absolutely, positively GREEN DAY. but I mean come on.. who didn't see that coming?
If I want to listen to anything that will calm my nerves and make me happy.. that isn't GREEN DAY. it'll be Brand New or Bayside.

I love the power of music.
How it makes your soul feel so free.
It makes you feel at home.
How, it takes you away to another land where you'll start dancing and singing.
You don't care who's watching you.
You don't know what is going on around you.
The world could be ending. But you're listening to your favorite song.
So you tune everything out.

I'll be completely honest here and say.
I never WANTED to like Justin Bieber.
I wanted to dislike him.
But my son liked one of his songs.
At 4 months old, he was watching the video to 'Baby' on tv.
He had a huge smile on his face.
Btw - He's almost 2 and still likes that song.
But, I knew all of the words by that summer, and my best friend was in the car with me.
That song came on, and I turned it up to the highest volume, sat at the longest light in history
And I sang it to her with all the windows rolled down. And by all, I mean, the only two that you could roll  down lol. She just sat there.. and stared at me. I was in the best mood though, because that one song came on, and I got to have fun and sing it as loud as i wanted.

There will be times that I am in a great mood, and all of the sudden I start listening to Evanescence and I get depressed. Which sucks because, I LOVE THEM. Amy Lee's voice takes music to a whole new level.

There will be times that I am so upset before church or something, and the minute we start worship, I am so into it that I don't want it to end.

Music is my key to life.
[besides my boy of course!]
What's yours?

self esteem.

Let me tell you a tiny story..
about a girl
who has always been over weight.
never been the prettiest one.
is a total dork.
keeps a few friends close.
who has been made fun of and laughed at on a COUNTLESS number of occasions.
she's shy.
she hates that she's over weight.
can't figure out how to fix it.
who feels like she will never find love because she's not pretty enough
or entertaining enough.
guys only want to use her for their pleasure.
and wants to be as pretty as all of her other friends.
..that girl..
well she's me.

i constantly look at all of my friends and wish i could be pretty like them.
i constantly wish i could find love with someone who at least thinks i'm decent to look at.
it's a battle i've fought since i can remember.
day care, baby sitter's kids, elementary, jr high, and even in high school.
i always had someone who made fun of me.
someone who made me realize i was not cute.

it's like.. no matter what.. i can't feel good about myself.
i see videos of myself..
i cringe..
"look at that ugly fat girl who can't do anything...."
"why is she so dumb.."
"she needs to figure out how to be cool.."

then i see pics other people have taken of me...
"ew.. why can't i have a pretty smile"
"ew. look at that ugly smile"

for a few months i felt so cute.
i had lost 2 pant sizes.
i had lost so much weight i was going to start working out
and i was going to get my belly button pierced.
i really felt cute.

no sooner did i think that, and i got pregnant.
i now face what many many women face..
but i feel so alone...
i face the ugliest stretch marks ever.
i see them and i just look at myself and say.. ew. you're disgusting.
no one likes stretch marks like that.

honestly..
i can't even look in a mirror with out gagging half the time.
it's really sad.

i pray about it.
but i don't think i sincerely pray about it.

i just want to look normal.
and i want to be pretty.

most of my friends say
"aw you're so pretty"
but i don't believe them.
because.. i mean..
they're my friends.. they're supposed to say that.
right?!

it's been a never ending battle for as long as i can remember.
i remember all my friends always being so cute..
and then me realizing..
it's not me they want to hang out with
it's so they can feel cute.
and i've always taken that and moved on.
never cared.

in sixth grade..
i was thrown in self esteem classes.
i had NO idea why.
NONE.

but lately.. i feel like i need to do them again.
because this battle has gotten worse..
i put on make up and i feel pretty ..
i look at the rest of me and gag..
i can't figure out how to change it.

sure.. lose weight
that's one step.

the next..
get rid of these ugly stretch marks..
I DON'T AND NEVER WILL BE ABLE TO AFFORD THAT.

i love my son.
i really do
and i SO don't blame him for my stretch marks.

trust me.

ugh.
idk..
i just want to be pretty..
i want to FEEL pretty
i want to BE WANTED.

idk what to do though.
idk how to change anything.
i just need help.

peace and love.
hope

Dancing in the Street.

This weekend I experienced something I hadn't felt in 4 years. 

It was the all time rush. 

The only drug I ever like to be on.

And it's the rush after doing a FLASH MOB DANCE in the middle of the street in downtown Noblesville during the street dance. We performed to "Dynamite" by Taio Cruz. LemonWheel did an AMAZING cover of it though!

The feeling I had during the practices were like.. 

"Am I ever going to get this?"

"Why do I keep messing up?"

"SMILE AND DANCE"

But when I was out there..

it all fell together. 

That night.. I was in the best mood. I didn't care how sweaty I was. I didn't care how hot it was outside. Because in that moment I felt so FREE. It was great! I can't wait to do something like that again! 

[:

Peace & Love,

Hope

The Fourth of July Glitter.

So you're probably wondering why I have my title as the Fourth of July Glitter?
Well, I will get to that reasoning in a minute, but for now.
I just want to tell you what a blessed day it was.

I got to wake up to a beautiful boy of course.
He may have been an über grump, but we got to walk in the Noblesville Parade.
We got the chance to walk with our church.
We got the chance to share with everyone in Noblesville how we Love God and Love Others.
I got to witness something amazing.
One person was trying to hand out one of our invitations,
and someone denied them.. her husband or boyfriend or maybe brother said:
"No - I would love one please, Thank you."
My mouth fell open.
I smiled
Told them both to have a great Fourth.
And went on.
It was nice to see that people aren't ashamed to admit that they love GOD.

Well anyways... that woman and whomever that person was that she was with just stuck in my mind.
I've been praying about them.
I hope that they find what they need in their lives.

Then, what made that parade even more special was hearing a ton of people ask where we were..
And a ton of people saying "5:30 Sundays? Hamilton Sports Complex? AWESOME!"

Well, after that long but awesome walk,
[seriously 1.5 miles!!]
I went back to my car with Noey, and my car just wouldn't work.
Normally, I would be so upset about it...
But I was just in love with how the day was going and how God was working,
That I couldn't.

My car ended up in the shop,
[everything happens for a reason right?]

Then, I had some sad situations happen,
but one of my best friends helped me through it with great words of wisdom,
I took it, and used it.

Then, I went with Noah and my Mom to see the fireworks.
As I was watching the fireworks, I just stared at them
I decided fireworks look just like glitter.
My whole body just felt amazing.
I felt like I was right where I was supposed to be.
I was doing what I was supposed to do.
And I just realized..
God was working through me to be a much happier person!

I can't wait to see where my life goes from here!


Love,
Hope

DIAMOND CANDLES!

For those of you that have followed me recently on facebook, you will know that all I've talked about is Diamond Candles.

If you don't know what Diamond Candles are, then I'll quickly explain! [: A Diamond Candle is made out of soy. They smell so good. Almost real in fact. Each candle comes with a ring in it. It can be priced anywhere from $10 to $5,000. That's the best part. The candles only cost 24.95 + s&h. I received mine almost 2 or 3 days after I ordered! How awesome right? They are a truly amazing company.

When I received my amazing box at my door step, I jumped for joy!

I brought it into my dining room:

 Literally. As soon as I opened the box, I

 could smell nothing but amazingness.

So I opened up each one slowly. 

look how awesome they are packed!

and voila! 

The blue one is called Sunwashed.

The Vanilla one is called Cupcake

The green one is called Apple Slice. 

The gold is where the rings are. 

They're nicely packaged. They're covered in a Wax, then a foil, then a plastic bag.

I didn't show that for whatever reason, but...

There is my ring! :D 

I'm in love.

No, My ring isn't real, but it still is sooo pretty! 

And I don't even like gold! 

Awesome right??!

Hope all of you have a blessed weekend!

xx -

Hope

family.

for some people, all they have is their blood family.
they don't really have friends.
and if they do, they don't keep them close enough to feel like family.
for me though, sometimes my friends are my family.
we don't fight as often, and when we sit down for dinner, we all enjoy and talk.
it's just weird how quick families can fall apart.
generally at the blink of an eye.

here i am, preaching about this, when i've only got the child part of my little family started.
we're just waiting for our other half. lol.

but, i guess what i'm trying to say is,
i'm glad for the blood family i have and the friend family.
i have plenty of friends i call sisters.
and that call my mom, mom.

it's pretty awesome if you ask me.
i like knowing that i can choose my family..

so meet the

[fRamily.]

[gretchen.]

[april.]

[ali.] 

[jackie.]

[eden.]

[carrie.]

[hope.]

[we don't have a pic together just yet.]

Newspaper Nails.

A friend from church introduced me to the coolest new nail art trend.

Newspaper Nails.

I looked up on youtube how to do them, because I couldn't remember exactly what she said.
And this is seriously the EASIEST nail art ever.

So, here goes....

MY FIRST TUTORIAL!

Materials Needed:

*Clean Nails

*Clear Coat Polish

*Nude Nail Polish or White Nail polish

*Rubbing Alcohol or Drinking Alcohol

[not for drinking]

*Scissors

*Newspaper

First you start off with a CLEAN nail.

Then, you put a base coat on to protect the nail.

I'm using O.P.I. Start to Finish.

You can use whatever you want.

Next, after the nail is completely dry...

Use a pale pink, yellow, etc color..

In this case, I used white.

I used 'Sinful Colors #1 Snow Me White'

Now, what I didn't like about this color or maybe the brand?

It was thick, but I had to use two coats of it,

it looked all ridgy and not smooth at all.

The second coat really helped.

But it takes 20 to thirty minutes to dry.

It gets kind of gooey

Now, you have to wait until the nail is COMPLETELY dry

[i'm impatient, and already did my other nails so, I'm going to use, RapiDry by O.P.I.]

Next, you soak your nail in alcohol.

Most people suggest 'rubbing alcohol'

HOWEVER

A friend gave me really gross UV Grape Vodka 

on Friday, and since it would never get drank..

I soaked my fingers in it! 

You soak your nail for about 30 - 60 seconds

Then you *IMMEDIATELY* put the piece of Newspaper on it

Let that sit for about 15 seconds or alcohol dries

This is what your nail will look like if you don't let it dry,

but the point of this picture really was the matte look before you put your clear top coat on. I put start to finish on again..

Here's a better picture of my nails!

this was my first go around with them, but I think for the first one it didn't turn out so bad!

Now, you try this at home, and you comment me or e-mail me pictures of your work and let me know how you did!

[:

hope.woolsey@gmail.com

xx -

hope 

single mother's day.

so sunday, as you all know, is 'father's day'

but i think it could also be known as yet another mother's day, but for all of us single mothers out there. i can't tell you how many people have told me that they're proud of me for playing mommy AND daddy. so does that mean that i can celebrate it too? even if it means *I* treat *NOAH* to something instead? i guess i never realized it, but for years, my mom played mommy and daddy too, but i never once thought.. "why don't i have a daddy?" i didn't care. i was perfectly content with my mom. maybe noah is too. at least for now..

but anyways, back to what i was saying.. would it be wrong for me to celebrate father's day as single mother's day? i mean, wouldn't it be okay to silently celebrate it? it's kind of like valentines day is singles awareness day, so father's day is single mother's awareness day and mother's day is single father's awareness day. lol. hmm... i guess until this year, i never thought of it like that.

sorry this is one big bowl of jumbled ramble.

who knows. all i know is i would LOVE your input on this.

xx
hope

waiting on my nails to dry.

i thought i'd do an update.
i haven't posted in here for about a week.

okay well really, about four days. but still.

lots has been on my mind.

i've been caught up in the thought of how ridiculous some people are.

for instance, right now, i am NOT looking for a relationship, i'm letting THAT relationship LOOK FOR ME! but what keeps finding me is the ones who AREN'T looking for a relationship, and they are looking for sex. well, let me just clear the books for all of you, i am not going to have sex until i am married. i know, i've already had a kid before marriage, blah blah blah.. but let's face it.. sex becomes a relationship ruiner in most cases. in fact, i can't think of one relationship that i've had that it hasn't ruined. i want to make sure that my relationship is based off of HOW WE FEEL about each other. it's just not fair. i've cried over too many guys who only wanted me for one thing. plus, i'm not having another baby til i'm married. sorry but raising one on my own is hard enough. idk how people who are single moms raise two or more. MORE power to them for sure!

i guess what i'm trying to say is.. i'm sick of kissing all the frogs... i'm definitely ready for my prince [:
[and yes, i know that noah is my baby prince, but i'm waiting for the other prince to come along]

xx -
hope

EDOPE.

It all started with two girls, one from Zionsville.
Named Eden.

The other from Noblesville.
Named Hope.

They both chose to go to Vincennes University, in Southern Indiana. Hope remembers seeing Eden around and thinking "That girl seems really kick ass!" Then seeing her again, and the girl stopping her to say "Hey, I like your dress." But they never said much after that. Until a day where a huge group of mutual friends were sitting at a table, and Eden and Hope happened to sit next to each other. 

Eden looked at Hope and said, "Hi, I'm Eden, and I'm retarded." 

And so began a beautiful friendship.

Hope invited Eden to a party at the fraternity house she was going to that evening, and Eden accepted! So Hope and Eden went back to their dorm rooms in Vanderburgh Hall and changed. When the two girls went out into the lobby to meet, they took one look at each other and laughed. They were both in MATCHING outfits. The girls went on a long walk to the fraternity house, and they started dancing to Shiny Toy Guns - Le Disko all the way down the street, and being loud and fun. 

Well, they didn't end up partying together that night, but over time, Hope and Eden became so close they became each other's other half. They began calling each other half, they also had crazy nicknames for each other like, Weirdy Butt McGhee and Butt Munch McGhee. They figured if they were halves, they made a whole. Which ended up as them becoming, EDOPE, fo sho! 

Eden needed a ride home for Fall Break, and since Hope lived close to Eden, they ended up meeting Eden's mom Angela at M-Plan. Which, coincidentally, BOTH Hope's mom, Nancy, and Angela WORKED THERE AT THE SAME TIME!!!! Crazy right? Well, then Eden went to Hope's around the time fall break was ending, and they hung out and had their first sleep over. 

Then they went back to Vincennes together. That's about the time that Eden decided to invite Hope on Spring Break. Hope accepted, of course. 

Eden had a Nintendo, and they played Donkey Kong. A LOT. They were pros. They're favorite character? Rhiney! He was the coolest Rhiney in the History of Rhineys!

Thanksgiving break was simple, Hope and Eden spent it together, and then Michael, [Hope's boyfriend at the time] came the night before they were to head back to Vincennes, and well, he was talking a lot so they hit him in the face with Turkey. So he was dubbed "Turkeyface" [clever, right?!]

Winter break, well they spent almost the whole break together. It was truly amazing. They had a Black and White themed New Years party where Hope's long time High School best friend, Ali, decided to take "water shots." So she was dubbed "Alephedora Watershots." 

[Edope, before the festivities began]

[Edope, at midnight]

[Alephedora Watershots]

That break, they also got a couple matching shirts while shopping with their moms at different times! They didn't even mean too. But then the girls went shopping together and they both got POKEMON shirts. Hope got a Pikachu one, and Eden got a Charmander one! Heck yahhhh!!!

After Christmas break, the two girls started to fall for two guys that were at the fraternity house a lot. One lived there the other visited. Eden started to date Ryan, and Hope started to date Kenny. Thus became the most awesome group ever. They always played beer pong together and everything. Shortly after the four started dating, Edope went on spring break to Jekyll Island, Georgia! Edope had a blast, they played the Juno soundtrack OVER AND OVER AND OVER. 

[Edope on their 8 am flight to Baltimore!]

[stitch and woobie on their flight with Edope]

[Edope matching as usual]

[Edope sunburnt]

Not too long after that vacation ended, Hope, Eden, Ryan, Michael, and Langdon went on a camping trip... A camping trip of dooooom!

[look how excited she is!]

[she's clearly excited too]

They were excited to see that the camping trip ended, and then came the end of the school year, and they were apart for months. Hope would come and visit Vincennes every now and then, but they were still apart, until the end of July/early August when Edope reunited at Warped Tour. 

They ended up rooming together that year in Vanderburgh. Although, they did not stay in the room together often, they were room mates. They formed an awesome BAND! Where they only wrote one song! But it was funny. They very few adventures that year, as they were very busy. 

Hope eventually moved away from Vincennes, and though, Eden and Ryan had moved up to Indy too, they just had a few misunderstandings and didn't hang out. 

Hope ended up having a little baby boy on October 14, 2009, named Noah. Eden and Ryan came to visit as a surprise to Hope, and she was very excited to see two of her absolute favorites! 

Eden and Ryan ended up moving back to Vincennes, just as Eden and Hope got closer again. So they continued their Edope-ness from afar. They always have reunions now. 

And, Eden, well she's the father to mister noey bean!

Edope has a reunion tomorrow, June 10, 2011, to go see THE BLACK KEYS! They are both very excited to get their stalk on! Be prepared for some fun awesome pictures. And because I know you're about to ask, THEY WILL BE MATCHING! <3

Eden is getting married next year to Ryan, and Hope is very excited for the both of them. Hope is the Maid-Of-Hotness in the wedding! How exciting! 

Do you have any friends that are like this?

xx -

Hope

i haven't done this in a LONG time.

I haven't done this in a long time, but I think this will be my last post like this, mostly because I keep forgetting to put this up, but I plan on setting up a three time a week thing JUST like this only it'll be different questions for each day that I do them! So here's to my last 5 things post! Thanks to all that have actually paid attention to this. 


- what are [five] things you are grateful for?
[one] my son definitely. 
[two] the people i have in my life
[three] God
[four] having a roof over my head
[five] being alive to see another day... 


- what are [five] of your strongest strengths or positive traits?
[one] my big heart!
[two] forgiveness 
[three] love
[four] strength
[five] caring [: 


- who are [five] people that love you most?
[one] God
[two] Noah
[three] Mom
[four] Family
[five] closest friends. [:


- what are [five] things you're looking forward to in the next [five] days?
[one] hearing back from paradise bakery 
[two] THE BLACK KEYS.
[three] edope, fo sho reunion day
[four] church
[five] hopefully getting the job so i can start school at qc school of wedding and event planning [: 

DAY 07 - Family Affair - Mary J. Blige

a song that reminds you of a certain event.

this song reminds me of my first dance recital ever. in seventh grade. hip hop. at curtain call dance academy. ohhhh man. i wish i could do this again!! if i could be on stage every day. i totally would do it!

xx -
hope.

the pros and cons

of not being "beautiful" "gorgeous" or "pretty"

pros:
* you're not the center of attention.
* people mainly ignore you.
* you don't have to worry about being hit on constantly.
* people could care less about have to say.
* you don't have to worry about having a boyfriend to TRY to be pretty for.
* you also don't have to worry about having a boyfriend to do something potentially embarrassing in front of.

cons:
- you're not the center of attention [except people make YOU the center OF attention with their JOKES]
- people mainly ignore you [until you do exactly what you want i.e. sing on stage or tell a joke because you'll be laughed at.]
- you don't have to worry about being hit on constantly [except by the creepy drunk guys at the bar/party]
- you don't have to worry about a boyfriend to TRY to be pretty for
- you also don't have to worry about having a boyfriend to do something potentially embarrassing in front of [they usually think that's cute.. except when you do it.]

MISSING!!

Honestly, I feel for this family! That is so scary. To think your child is safe in a different state, then, you come to find out your child is MISSING?! I can't even begin to understand how they feel right now. But, you know what scares me most? I lived three hours away from home a few years back, and I can't tell you how many times that I WALKED HOME ALONE, I guess I can say I'm very lucky. But, I am just hoping and praying that this girl can be returned back to her family safe and sound. Or that she is found alive and soon! This is truly scary. Life can be so normal one second and the next......... your entire world is changed! If Noah ever went missing.. I would be on a day and night search and never sleep until my baby was found. Or they would have to lock me in the loony bin because I would lose my mind. Either way, this right here.. is real life.. and all we can do is try and help look for this young woman and pray for the family! Lord, please please please bring this woman home safe and sound!! 

xx

Hope

DAY 06 - Back At One - Brian Mcknight

a song that reminds you of somewhere.

this song reminds me of my mom and i's first trip to st. pete beach together. i LOVED this song so much when it came out, and every time it would come on, we would turn up the radio. .......for the first day we were there..... then we tried to avoid it because it's all we heard. over and over and over. sometimes it was on three different radio stations at the same time! haha. but now, when i hear it, i just giggle because we had so much fun that whole vacation!

xx -
hope

Father's Day.

So, as most of you know, Father's Day is coming up. It's a holiday I haven't celebrated full on since the year I graduated high school. Things got weird with my, i guess you can call him, step dad the year after that.

My church is having a father-daughter dance this year, and honestly, inviting him made me feel really stupid. I'm just glad he gracefully declined.. even if he did give me a stupid look when I did ask. I made a joke saying, "I'll just dress Noah up to make him look like a daughter for you." It took less awkwardness out of the whole thing, but deep down it kind of sucked. I mean.. I never once had a real date to a dance, and being turned down by someone you USED to call "daddy" only made me feel more stupid as a human. My real dad, yeah, long story short.. he basically doesn't even know I exist.

Ugh. I just wan to know if there is a such thing as a good man out there, and if there are any.. why can't a normal good one find me? blehhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, for those of you that do have dads.. please recognize them on father's day. Let them know how much you love them, and let them know that no matter what, you'll always be their baby girl/boy. Treat them to a special dinner or go play sports with them. Whatever. Just honor them! Rock relationship or not, let them know you care!

And if you're wondering, yes, I'll go to the dance, and I'll dance with Noah, because I play the role of mommy AND daddy here! [:

What are your special plans for Father's Day?

xx -
Hope

DAY 05 - you're never over - eminem.

a song that reminds you of someone...

this song reminds me of one of the first girls who ever showed me what it was like to be a best friend or to have one. and we hadn't seen each other in eight years, but i had asked about her to a friend of mine who knew her too, a lot, and she i guess had been doing well from what i knew. i had been thinking about her a lot for like a week straight. wanting to go down and say hi to her and her dad since it had been a while.. then one day, i get a call from our mutual friend. saying "are you sitting down?" and i said, "laying down.. why?" and he said, "rene' passed away this weekend!" it didn't hit me until a month after the funeral, even seeing her i couldn't believe she was really gone.. but this song helped me through the whole thing. ]:

RIP Rene' <3

8.14.87

to

7.17.10

xx

hope

day 04 - LET IT BE - Across the Universe version.

a song that makes you sad

this song makes me sad because all of the things they show in here are all true events. and just the way they end the scene.. it's SO powerful and really sad!! but i'm glad our world isn't like this anymore... just need to work on all of the hate we have going on right now!!

enjoy!!

peace.
xx
hope

It's The WEEKEND!!

It's a busy weekend, no doubt about it. I've got tons going on.

Today, Noah and I hung out with my friend Taryn at our neighborhood pool. We had so much fun!! Noah got a tiny bit of sun.. I think his sun block wore off or something. The only tan I need to work on right now is MY LEGS!! ugh. They are sooo ghostly white. haha.

First off being, school. I'm going to get up early and be at school, only to leave from there and go pick up my bestie!! Who, by the way, I haven't spent a ton of time with since she moved to an extremely small town far far away from me :/ Gretchen and I go way back. Basically, we met one day, and the next we had friendship necklaces, and we were having marker fights. 8th grade we had EVERY class together.. pretty much anyways. Only one semester where we didn't. Which.. was weird. But we have been through everything together. Between, solo and ensemble, to me moving far away, to break ups, to make ups, to growing up.. it's been a CRAZY almost 10 years.. I remember when we were awkward seventh graders... I'm going to break her HOT BOX virginity!! I'm sooo excited!

[[GB -
i, for real, can't believe we met at 13, and now you're turning 23. I remember all the crazy things we used to do. Staying up until 7 am. Realizing it's daylight, going to bed, waking up at 5 in afternoon, and doing it all over again. Rolling chairs with lap fulls of snacks. Fireworks listening to Fall Out Boy. Writing letters, spending weeks on end together, big fights turning into long talks, texting, talking on the phone for hours.... both of us going through big changes in our lives, growing up, but still when we get together, we're those awkward 7th graders, who now wear make up and better clothes! I love you lady! and I'm glad I can still say you're my best friend after 10 years!]]

Then, Sunday is going to be one of the best days [minus hopey and gretchy day] I get to go to my first baby nieces BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIG fifth birthday party!!!! I can't wait!! I, for real, remember the day she was born. April and I were KNOWN to sleep in, and I was sleeping in the day it happened.. I got two calls from Jhordan's phone.. And I just ignored it.. Not even thinking.. Then, I went to my cousin's to stay the night. And that night, I got a call from my mom saying, Abigail Elise had been born!!! I COULDN'T believe my baby niece was here! And now.. SHE'S GOING TO BE FIVE!! ahhh!!

[[Abi -
awntopey is very proud of the lady you have become. From the first time I ever held you, to now, I just can't believe how grown up you are! I know right now you don't understand much of why I'm so excited to have seen you grow, but one day you will! I remember all of the silly things we used to do together. I just want you to know that i love you so much! Even though baby Noah and I don't see you every day, we both love you very much! I'm glad to say I have the coolest and most beautiful nieces ever! Happy birthday babygirl! Love always, awntopey]]


[[baybiicakels -
Honey, I'm glad that we're best friends and that no matter what you consider me family! We've been through a crazy ton of things together. I love everything that has gone on. We have a very strong bond. It's something not many friends have. We met online by accident. Thank Sarah B. for that! lol. And Spanish! joined.at.the.hip. I'm proud of the mommy you've become!! Keep up the awesome work with your precious ladies and my beauitful nieceybutts!! I love them both as if they were my own. Just like you with Noah. I can't wait to see you graduate and to be your guinea pig for school!! I lAve you Great Big Bunches Baybay!!]]


Then, is my bestie JACKIE's baby shower for Baby Jaxon!! My very first NEPHEW!!! I am sooo stoked!! I can't wait to see my fave "crazypregnantlady", as she calls herself!! [and of course, my kicking little nephew in the belly!! Jackie and I have had a crazy ride of a friendship. We met at VU. We became room mates, and we partied together a lot. Then we came back home, went to school at Kayes for a while, and then, I had a baby, she got married, and NOW SHE'S HAVING THE BABY!! yayyy!!! aklgja;klja;dflkjad <<< excitement!!

[[Lexxtacyyy!! 
My oh my, you have grown up a ton in the past year. Or three. You and I have been through crazy things, like, switching out room mates to become room mates, 350, all the crazy stuff that we used to do 350 style, boy drama, drama that our 'friends' caused to make us not talk to each other ever, to stupid schools, me having aldergator, getting into better schools, you getting married, and being my fave preggers lady!! i am sooo excited to have watched you bloom into the woman you are today! I can't wait to see how awesome of a mother you are going to be to that amazing little boy! Jaxon is going to have a wonderful cousin/big brother to have as a body guard!! I love you like crazy woman!! And I'm extremely proud of you!!]]


After her baby shower, Noah and I will be heading off to church. It'll be a pretty chill night after that, but I'm excited for the busy weekend I have planned!!

I'm glad to say God has blessed me with the best friends a woman could as for.

Have a good night everyone.
xx -
Hope

DAY 03 - Summer Nights - Cassie Steele

a song that makes you happy

Honestly, this song makes me happy because it reminds me of how much fun I used to have all the time driving around with friends listening to this song. Plus, it's Cassie Steele, what's NOT to love about it?! I love her voice, it's soooo different from most singers. It's verrrry unique. I think everything about her is unique!

Enjoy!!

xx -
Hope

In All Seriousness...

I've decided to let me getting the job at Paradise Bakery be the sign that it's time to start school at QC School of Event Planning. I would love for it to happen to be honest. I get my next and LAST refund from Regency in 3 weeks, so I might have a paycheck, PLUS a big check on top of that. So I will be good to go! Let's just see how this works out.

But, what I've been thinking about is, combining all of my skills into one. So, I could do hair and event planning! I would love it. Since I've got Mommy & Me with April, I can test it all out with our group! I can't wait to see where this goes! Hopefully far though.

Sometimes I wonder if I'd be taking on too much, but then I think about it, and the Wedding/Event Planning courses are all independent and I can take as MUCH time as I need!! So we will see!!

Just gotta pray!
He will show me the way!!

xx -
Hope

DAY 02 - Rebecca Black - Friday

my LEAST favorite song.

those of you that truly know me, i love all songs. but this song i can't stand. not only her voice.. but the LYRICS. come on now.. if you're going to make a song.. make real lyrics.. ugh.. she's pretty.. but shouldn't be making music... even the acoustic song sucks... ugh.

okay.. well yeah.. no one will watch this one most likely but here yah go..

aljdg;lakjg;ladfj;lakjglkajdg;lajdflkajd
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


xx -
hope.

DAY 01 - 2000 light years away

- what's your favorite song?


my all time favorite song would have to be: 2,000 Light Years Away - Green Day.
a friend of mine had let me borrow a Green Day cd, and I instantly fell in love with that song. I thought the lyrics were cute and it was a punk song. it make it the most kick butt song I've ever heard. To this day - I can still listen to that song over and over and over! This will be one of the FOUR Green Day songs that will be featured in my imaginary wedding that I don't plan on ever having! HAHA. :D I guess I should add in for you all that DON'T know me - Green Day IS my FAVORITE BAND! <3


anyways..
Here's the song!

xx -
hope

30 DAY SONG CHALLENGE.

most people do that on their facebook.. 

well you know what.. 

I'M going to blog it. :D 

i think it'll be more fun that way!! 

:D

YAYYYYY!

xx - hope

alright.. that failed.

so, today i kind of wanted some feed back on the whole five things post.
and i got ZERO.
so -
that's fine.

but -
i challenge you to the next thing i have in mind..

give me more ideas for music to add to my playlist.
i like that my page has it's originality and that hardly anyone has
a playlist. and i'd like to kind of keep it that way. i think
it helps the three people that view my blog get to know me more. :D

soo -
lemme know some suggestions of YOUR favorite songs!

annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd
GO.

xx -
hope

days seventeen & eighteen.

i'm posting this one earlier in the day! yay!! 
going to blog again tonight though! 


- what are [five] things you are grateful for?
[one] my son definitely. 
[two] the people i have in my life
[three] God
[four] having a roof over my head
[five] being alive to see another day... even if i possibly have an ear infection! [:


- what are [five] of your strongest strengths or positive traits?
[one] i challenge you to fill these in for me. i hate always talking about myself, so i want YOU to do it instead!
[two]
[three]
[four]
[five]


- who are [five] people that love you most?
[one] God
[two] Noah
[three] Mom
[four] Family
[five] closest friends. 


- what are [five] things you're looking forward to in the next [five] days?
[one] sprinkler park with kadence, bean, and kristin! 
[two] filling out a job application.
[three] gretchy's bday party with brittany!
[four] my beautiful niece's fifth birthday party!
[five] my BFF's baby shower for her amazing son jaxon!!! <3 [: 

this was supposed to be a five things post

but it's not.
i'll post that after i post this.

so - today i sat down and really, i mean REALLY looked at my progress for school, and i about hit the floor when i saw how behind i was. Obviously, i want to graduate and i am going to do everything in my power to finish school, but something i was thinking about last night [and looked up] was wedding planning. how awesome would that be?! i've half thought about doing that while i'm going to regency. idk how long it would take to graduate with it - but i think it would be a TON of fun. idk i'm going to think about it more and look into it a LOT more before i make a real decision. maybe i could put them together or something?! i don't know. i'm just thinking about it. i think i would enjoy that because i love putting together events and why not put them together for PEOPLE. i don't know. lol and i know i've said "i dont know" a million times but i'm still figuring it out.

anyways -
i've been offered by a million of my friends for help on their hair or for manis and pedis.
so thank you to all of you that have offered!!
you'll BE the reason i graduate!!!!

i love you all!!

xx -
hope

hmmm...

what do you think?
new blog title!
new blog link!
new blog design..
:D

xx -
hope

HELP WANTED.

woman, 23, seeking a new blog name.
has idea of
peace. hope. hair. music. 
what do you think?
have a better idea?
please helpp!!!
:D


thanks


xx-
hope

uh ohhh.. new blog name!?!?

i just...

googled sugar baby
just to see if my blog would pop up..
annnd. instead...
the "urban dictionary" version of what a sugar baby is..
made me think i should change my name..

"a woman who provides companionship and/or sexual relations for a wealthy, older man in exchange for expensive gifts and/or money; a "gold digger"


soooo
who agrees?
new blog name?
yes?
no?


xx-
hope

trying..

HONESTLY, 
i had this whole thing planned out in my head for a blog post.. but i can NOT figure out how to word it.
so here's the deal.
i'm gonna ramble..
and you'll get a cupcake if you get to the end.
k?
k!

so -
today my pastor put my life in perspective whether he realizes it or not... he was saying how each one of us has our own song to our life.. and we're always looking for the next verse to it... i'm trying to figure out mine.. but what i need to do is let GOD write it for me. i ALWAYS try to push the process and then i end up not liking where it goes. so i'm going to let Him work it out for me now. i just have to have patience.. speaking of.. that's something else i need just in general. i have some.. but lately it's been on the EDGE. ugh... Lord, pleaaaaaase help me!! <3 


i really don't know what else to do other than leave it in His hands. i know He will lead me in the path of where i need to be. one thing i have started doing is, when i say "i'm going to take this road" or "i'm going to get this drink" or whatever, i just do it. i don't go with my second guess. i feel like there's a REASON that i do whatever my first instinct is. 


also - while i was at church today, i started thinking about how i am not fully following my dream. and that is music. i love doing hair. but i love music more. and that is the dream that really calls me back every single time. it doesn't matter what i do, i always start to think about how i wish i could do something with music. well i had a bright idea of a music/hair salon. so i was thinking about if anyone would like it.. i would LOVE it. i LOVE the thought of it.. so why not.. :D i'm sure other music lovers would love it just as much. but like.. i would do some theme for every day.. where like mondays could be something crazy like 80s day.. and so on.. and we could have special days where we also help out the needy. [: what would you think about it?! [:

yeah. i think that's about it.
if you made it.. well...

there's your promised cuppycake!

xx -

hope 

days eleven thru sixteen.

- what are five things i'm grateful for today?
[one] my family. 
[two] my good friends.
[three] waking up to another day. 
[four] actually being on time for once.
[five] a good/GREAT hair day/just a great day in general! [:


- what are five of my strongest strengths or positive traits?
[one] my personality.
[two] i wear my heart on my sleeve.
[three] i love everyone.
[four] i believe in second, third, fourth, fifth, etc chances.
[five] love.


- who are five people that love me most?
[one] noah
[two] my mom
[three] God
[four] extended family
[five] close friends


- what are five things i'm looking forward to in the next seven days?
[one] spending time with noah.
[two] spending time with OLD friends.
[three] school  
[four] getting to do a cute fun hair cut on a client on the first.
[five] saying thanks to ALL my military friends [:


xx -
hope