hmmm...

what do you think?
new blog title!
new blog link!
new blog design..
:D

xx -
hope

HELP WANTED.

woman, 23, seeking a new blog name.
has idea of
peace. hope. hair. music. 
what do you think?
have a better idea?
please helpp!!!
:D


thanks


xx-
hope

uh ohhh.. new blog name!?!?

i just...

googled sugar baby
just to see if my blog would pop up..
annnd. instead...
the "urban dictionary" version of what a sugar baby is..
made me think i should change my name..

"a woman who provides companionship and/or sexual relations for a wealthy, older man in exchange for expensive gifts and/or money; a "gold digger"


soooo
who agrees?
new blog name?
yes?
no?


xx-
hope

trying..

HONESTLY, 
i had this whole thing planned out in my head for a blog post.. but i can NOT figure out how to word it.
so here's the deal.
i'm gonna ramble..
and you'll get a cupcake if you get to the end.
k?
k!

so -
today my pastor put my life in perspective whether he realizes it or not... he was saying how each one of us has our own song to our life.. and we're always looking for the next verse to it... i'm trying to figure out mine.. but what i need to do is let GOD write it for me. i ALWAYS try to push the process and then i end up not liking where it goes. so i'm going to let Him work it out for me now. i just have to have patience.. speaking of.. that's something else i need just in general. i have some.. but lately it's been on the EDGE. ugh... Lord, pleaaaaaase help me!! <3 


i really don't know what else to do other than leave it in His hands. i know He will lead me in the path of where i need to be. one thing i have started doing is, when i say "i'm going to take this road" or "i'm going to get this drink" or whatever, i just do it. i don't go with my second guess. i feel like there's a REASON that i do whatever my first instinct is. 


also - while i was at church today, i started thinking about how i am not fully following my dream. and that is music. i love doing hair. but i love music more. and that is the dream that really calls me back every single time. it doesn't matter what i do, i always start to think about how i wish i could do something with music. well i had a bright idea of a music/hair salon. so i was thinking about if anyone would like it.. i would LOVE it. i LOVE the thought of it.. so why not.. :D i'm sure other music lovers would love it just as much. but like.. i would do some theme for every day.. where like mondays could be something crazy like 80s day.. and so on.. and we could have special days where we also help out the needy. [: what would you think about it?! [:

yeah. i think that's about it.
if you made it.. well...

there's your promised cuppycake!

xx -

hope 

days eleven thru sixteen.

- what are five things i'm grateful for today?
[one] my family. 
[two] my good friends.
[three] waking up to another day. 
[four] actually being on time for once.
[five] a good/GREAT hair day/just a great day in general! [:


- what are five of my strongest strengths or positive traits?
[one] my personality.
[two] i wear my heart on my sleeve.
[three] i love everyone.
[four] i believe in second, third, fourth, fifth, etc chances.
[five] love.


- who are five people that love me most?
[one] noah
[two] my mom
[three] God
[four] extended family
[five] close friends


- what are five things i'm looking forward to in the next seven days?
[one] spending time with noah.
[two] spending time with OLD friends.
[three] school  
[four] getting to do a cute fun hair cut on a client on the first.
[five] saying thanks to ALL my military friends [:


xx -
hope

so yesterday . . .

i spent all morning finding a place for noah and i to go just in case the storms got bad, and my friend kristin sent me a text inviting us over. so we went, and it was all sunshine and blue skies and HOT!!! it was insane. but when we got there, we went to meijer. got some cuuuute pics from that too!

they held hands, hugged, and everything. [: it was the cutest thing ever. [: he got really jealous when i held her though. i guess i'm HIS mommy and no one else's. 

well anyways, after we left kristin's house, we went to the mall to kill some time before school. IF i ever get married i found the wedding dress that i've always wanted in a STORE at castleton square mall.. [second dress i've always wanted. first dress being hilary duff's dress in 'a cinderella story'] but this is the dress i really want also.. 

[it's the one on the left.. not the right...]

i was SOO excited to see it! [: 

after we walked by that store, i took him to the disney store where he saw the cutest mickey mouse ever. he saw it. hugged and that was that. i couldn't buy it for him though. ]: it made me sad! i can't wait to be able to buy it for him though! he's gonna be so cute with it! lol. 

then i went to school, and i did a bunch of haircuts on my mannequin, and i started doing crazy things to it just to see what would've happened. it was great. then it was 9:15 so it was time to clock out...

i put my finger on the scanner.. and it told me... TO CLOCK IN. i missed out on FOUR HOURS. even though i was at school, my instructor saw me, and i did a bunch of things, i LOTS my four hours. ]: i am soo sad about it! lol. but whatever, it's my fault, and i know that. 

after class i drove home, and then the "epic tornado storms" stared. we got NOTHING. just light rain, thunder, and lots of lightening. not even enough wind to do scare me. but i was scared at first.

how was your day?

let's just talk about this day...

so lately, noah has been super sick with a sinus infection. it's been sad and nuts. and to top it off, he's getting 2 more molars. i know he's gotta be in pain, because his first two molars haven't come through all the way yet. ugh. poor guy. ]: well, anyway, i woke up to him crying, and since it was mostly a whine i just waited it out. he whines a LOT in his sleep sometimes. well, since it continued, i got up and got him out of bed and i just looked at him and said, "i miss my happy healthy baby. i want the baby that used to say "oh no, nana, what's that?!" [all separately of course] all the time" and not even ten minutes later, he's sitting on the couch "what's that?!?!" "oh nooooo!!!" i was sooo excited. i tested his appetite, and it was mostly back. not all the way, but mostly. and i went over to do something, and i checked on him, he was eating some fruit snacks that i had sitting next to him to try and eat, and he was sitting on the couch with his little legs crossed putting his tiny hand in the little package and eating. the way he did it was just the cutest. he looked SO grown up sitting there. it really made me happy. [[yes there is a bottle in this picture, no we don't give him bottles all the time, it's the only way he'd drink anything though these past two days]]

well, about 30 minutes later, i got on facebook.. i saw that reka on radio now had posted something saying "if you want to win good charlotte tickets follow me on twitter in the next 10 minutes." she had posted that 9 minutes prior to when i looked at that. i quickly exited my facebook app and got on twitter. and when i checked twitter, there was the post. "tweet me if you want to win good charlotte tickets" [45 seconds ago] i promptly tweeted her. and guess who won?!?!?! YOURS TRULY!! i can't tell you how excited. well.. wait.. yes i can. i forgot how to spell my own town. i've lived here for nine years.. and i forgot.. my mind was everywhere else! i couldn't thank her enough! what makes me winning even more exciting was, i had JUST texted my best friend, gretchen, to tell her that i had just received an e-mail from live nation [yes, i'm well aware it says yellowcard, but good charlotte is also playing with.] and it said good charlotte was playing. and we were talking about how we wanted to go. then i turned around and WON!

i went to school and i was on front desk tonight. i wasn't all that excited about it because we have a WHOLE BUNCH of new products that i REALLY want to try out. We got wella color and sebastian hair products! it's going to be awesome!! i'm happy! i liked some redken products, but i was definitely ready for NEW and better products. i haaaaate redken color. it doesn't last in your hair more than a couple weeks. it disappoints me. lol. but anyways. while i was on desk, a woman had called and said she had this bob, and she's had it for years, so she was ready to get rid of it. and she wants me to "destroy" it and have a TON of fun with it. so i'm doing that next week! stay tuned to see results.

sunday, i'm working with one of the girls from my mommy and me group and i'm going to do hair and make up for a photo shoot she's having to build her website and for me to build my portfolio! [: yay!!

let me know how your day was, and also, can you please PLEASE please tell me how to make this blog more interesting? if i can't get more peoples input i may shut this down. it doesn't seem to do well. i kind of feel like i do when i talk to people, because a lot of people don't listen to me when i talk. lol.

thank you.

xx-
hope

days five thru ten.

sorry for not blogging lately. 
i guess it's been harder for me to blog because not many people read this. lol
gotta get myself more readers or become more interesting. or both...


- what are five things i'm grateful for today?
[one] even though my son is sick, he's still healthier than he could be.
[two] school has been going great.
[three] i finally hit the 1,000 mark at school, less than 500 hours left until graduation from regency beauty institute. 
[four] i got to wake up to yet another day!
[five] i won free tickets to see good charlotte from radio now! [: 


- what are five of my strongest strengths or positive traits?
[one] honesty
[two] happiness
[three] i'm an okay friend
[four] i put my friends first.
[five] beyond caring/loving [:


- who are five people that love me most?
[one] noah
[two] my mom
[three] God
[four] extended family
[five] close friends


- what are five things i'm looking forward to in the next seven days?
[one] spending time with noah.
[two] spending time with friends.
[three] school and working on my portfolio with kaylee lynn. 
[four] getting to do a cute fun hair cut on a client on the first.
[five] hopefully getting my new growth covered and my random highlight. [:


xx -
hope

5.20.11

This blog will be "what am i wearing" and "fitness" 

I can't wait to tell you all about my fitness, I just completed it, and it was intense. I was going to go to bed after blogging, but I do believe, instead I'll be showering. 

- breakfast -

I again did not eat breakfast. 

i really need to work on that though

- lunch -

i had a meatloaf banquet meal. 

i was disappointed in the carb count in it. 

it had 35 carbs but it was only 200 calories.. 

i'm trying to take in less carbs and calories, 

any advice on what i should do?

- dinner -

tonight for dinner i had half the amount of steak that was cooked for me. 

it was like probably 10 pieces of cut up steak, a spoon full of asparagus, and 3 tomato halves [so i guess a tomato and a half] with mozzarella cheese melted on it. 

- snacks -

i didn't snack that much, but i had 2 bites of noah's kids cuisine meal. 

and a piece of lunch meat [i don't know the name of it] and a swipe of cream cheese [yumm!]

- work out -

like i said before, i'm excited to tell you all about my work out. 

now, like i said in my blog for yesterday, i definitely was beyond sore from yesterday's work out, and i know it's best to work out through the pain, so i kept it up today. for all of today's activities before my big work out, i played with noah a little bit outside. he is currently teething, so he's a bit grumpy. we did, however, chase each other around the house a few times. 

but the big work out was a  12 minute cardio kickbox burn by denise austin

that link has the video on it. i definitely suggest it. i haven't ever felt that tired or worked out like that during a work out. she makes it look so easy. i don't get it. lol. just kidding. but you work out your abs a lot. and your legs and your arms. it's nice. especially if you don't have any weights. which is what i was trying to target today, i didn't want to have to miss out on half of the work out. because of not having weights or bands. 

i also got halfway through this blog and decided to do the dance i had ready to do for tomorrow. 

beyonce let's move instructional video

this also comes with the video to dance with at the end too. i definitely recommend this if you would like to dance rather than fully work out. [: i hope you enjoy both of these videos! 

tomorrow i will do the 30 minute at home work out along with a dance.

which i'm very excited about. 

[april's sunglasses, i have no idea where she go them.]

[hair down and just blow dried, no flat irons today!]

[dress; old navy; 10$ i do believe]

[my color pix camcorder hiddin in my bra(;]

[white; old navy flip flops 3$]

side note; i couldn't get a full length picture of the dress

not the exact dress;; [check the link to see the style] but it is how the dress is styled.. 

mine is grey with gold and silver decorations on the top around the boob area

and it has a criss cross spaghetti strap to it. i love it! definitely recommended for the summer

it's light and flowy and very fun!

as for my make up, i didn't do enough to make me want to take pics of it. 

[[okay i lied, i tried but you couldn't tell]]

tomorrow i will write down the products i use and let you know.

as far as what i use on my hair, 

i use it's a 10 leave in conditioner. 

it's fantastic. 

i had a lot of color done to my hair at the beginning of the year.

when i say a lot of color i mean... 

like 5 different colors.

but it's helped restore my hair since i started using it. 

i also use got 2 b heat protectent. i love it! 

it's a spray not a lotion. 

AMAZING.

what was your fashion of the day?

did you do any work outs that you liked?

were there any foods you would recommend?

let me know!!

thank you for taking the time to check out my blog.

i'll be trying the vlog thing soon! 

promise!

love you all

God bless

xx -

hope

5.19.11

I'm going to start off with yesterday's fitness since I really started working out yesterday. I can't remember what I wore so whatever. But what I ate 

[breakfast]

i didn't eat breakfast at all yesterday.

[lunch]

mom took noah and i to houlihans for lunch. i ordered the 1/2 french dip. 

it came with fries and soup. i chose the potato soup.

we also ordered white bean hummus 

i ate all of my soup, 3/4 of my sandwich, and some of my fries.  

[dinner]

i had half of a chicken breast. 

some vegetables. 

[i can't remember what kind lol]

[snacks]

i had like 8 chips and 10 pretzels. 

[workout]

my review on this work out is great. i was feeling the pain through out the work out, which i knew meant i was doing it right, but i also am still feeling it at 11:28 tonight. [" so it's very effective. i will let you know in my next blog for tonight what i'm doing. i haven't decided if i'm going to do a dance work out yet or something from here or something on 'on demand'. i have 20 minutes to figure that out. anyways. back to the topic, i don't have weights in my house so that was the only down fall and we also don't have any bands to work out with either, if you don't own either one of those, you can't do the end of the work out. definitely try this at home though. 

thank you for checking out my blog.

i hope you enjoy this. 

give me feedback on what else i should add 

to make this work out blog more effective.

xx - 

hope .

i need opinions!!!

i think i'm going to start blogging also, about my weight loss.
this is a big change in my life, and i think it will help other mommies who are dealing with the problems of weight loss. so i'll start posting pics up every day of how i'm doing and what i've eaten and what exercises i've been doing?

idk this is just a test run, and i want to get everyone's full opinions on it.
i know only like 3 people read my blog so it's kind of pointless, but i want to try this out.
i have a new camcorder, and i want to put it to good use. so i can start maybe vlogging about it too.

got ideas?
lemme know!

xx -
hope

updateeeeeeeee::::
maybe i'll do a fashion vlog too?!
i love those things [:

days three and four.

- what are five things i'm grateful for today?
[one] the sun is out today
[two] it's a nice relaxing day
[three] i got to work out yesterday, and i can definitely feel where my muscles were worked
[four] i got to wake up to yet another day!
[five] i have the most beautiful boy ever!


- what are five of my strongest strengths or positive traits?
[one] honestly
[two] today i have
[three] no idea
[four] what to put
[five] here, other than what i've already said. you should say some five things for me [:


- who are five people that love me most?
[one] noah
[two] my mom
[three] God
[four] extended family
[five] close friends


- what are five things i'm looking forward to in the next seven days?
[one] spending time with noah.
[two] spending time with friends.
[three] passing a test we're having tomorrow
[four] possibly having decent weather??
[five] ....we will see


xx -
hope

scary day.

okay so here's a little update on what happened on monday.
i was going to do my friends hair for a contest for wella color, called trend vision. i was very excited, and i wanted to start with the cut first then do the color. my friend, mary, has A TON of hair. i mean... more hair than anyone i have ever met in my entire life. so i was ready to get this show on the road. she talked me into cutting her hair at a 90, which means pulling the hair straight out from the head. i wasn't comfortable with this because of what i'd done on mannequins once or twice before, like 4 months ago. but if that's what she wanted.. well customer is always right. lol.

so i start cutting and i instantly hate it. i'm freaking out and about to cry. then i start to get comfortable after other people reassured me that it looked fine and i was freaking out for nothing. but then after this cut had already taken me 3 hours, and i was about to work on the front, i messed up the angle she wanted. i quickly gave up, went and got my instructor, and my instructor is helping me, and telling me i didn't do a bad hair cut, i just lost my guide, which is code for "you really messed this up."

this my friends, made me want to give up being a hair dresser. for those of you that know me, you know i love hair and make up, but this wasn't my original dream, so it's much easier for me to give it up. however, by the end of the week, i'll have 1000 hours and be ready for my last 500 hours in school. [:

i, eventually, want to go back to school for a business degree, but that may end up being an online thing while i'm working... wherever i end up working. lol.

but, anyways, back to the subject.

today, i spent all evening at school doing the same haircut i did on mary, on miss kim, and finding where i did wrong. miss kim has terrible hair, (miss kim is a mannequin - btw) and i did five haircuts on her today to figure it out. she turned out great. well, as great as miss kim can get. and now i'm back to feeling confident.

have you ever wanted to give something up, because you felt like you tragically messed it up?

xx -
hope

day two and three combined (:

sorry, i already failed at this, i was sooo preoccupied with noah bc he didn't go to bed until 230 AM (i know right? crazy!) that i didn't feel like blogging.

- what are five things i'm grateful for today?
[one] not having a client so i could practice on miss kim with haircuts because after the disaster on monday, i didn't want to ever go back to school.
[two] some of the girls i go to school with talking me into picking up another pair of sheers and trying again!
[three] my son being the sweetest most amazing thing in my life. i still believe i'm living a dream.
[four] music. it seriously ties my life together.
[five] God, of course, because he gave me yet another glorious day to be with my son. [:

- what are five of my strongest strengths or positive traits?
[one] i've learned how to block drama out of my life.
[two] looking toward the positive and less on the negative
[three] caring/forgiving
[four] love
[five] faith in Him and other people. [:

- who are five people who love me most?
[one] my son
[two] my mom
[three] God
[four] extended family
[five] my best friends.

- what are five things i'm looking forward to in the next seven days?
[one] weekend with noah
[two] splash ministries on sunday
[three] hopefully working on my music video
[four]  passing a test on saturday
[five] warm weather.

xx-
hope

new way to blog

So, yesterday at chuch, my pastor had given us a handout that had questions to ask yourself at the beginning of every day. We're learning how to be **JOYFUL** in our lives, and I definitely want to start to be joyful! So every day, I will note in my phone what I'm feeling like that morning, and every night I will post what I'm feeling. (: [today is different because i didn't think about doing this, this way until just now, so this is what i've been thankful for all day]

here's to DAY ONE!


- What are five things I'm thankful for today?
[one] i'm thankful my son is home from chicago safe and sound
[two] i'm thankful i was given one more day to go on with my life
[three] i'm thankful that ali introduced me to waterline church
[four] i'm thankful that i have great friends like mary, who remind me that no matter what, she'll still love me, and that i'm decent at what i do,even if i get frustrated.
[five] i'm thankful that my mom took this week off so i can make it to school on time!

- What are five of my strengths or positive traits?
[one] i'm very forgiving.
[two] i'm selfless
[three] caring
[four] finally gaining self esteem
[five] helpful

- Who are five people who love me most?
[one] noah
[two] momma
[three] God
[four] grandparents
[five] friends

- What are five things I'm looking forward to in the next seven days?
[one] spending the weekend with noah
[two] serving in splash ministries this sunday
[three] finishing up for the wella trendvision contest
[four] following God
[five] changing my life into following the Joy cycle! (:

xx
hope

over protection.

there are some things in life that i just don't understand. 

one of them being over protected children. 

now i'm not saying i'm the best at not over protecting my son
but he's ONE. i'm going to follow him around and  watch his every move.. 
but that's because he's still just a little bit fragile.
boy could eat dirt behind my back ...
okay okay he's done that before. 
not gonna lie.. 


but anyways..


maybe i'm crazy because i'm pretty much raising my kid how i was raised. 
i'm making him feel like he's just like mommy, he can watch what mommy watches, he can listen to what mommy  listens to, and he can hang out and listen to conversations that i have too. i mean.. i guess that's a bit different, but i don't say anything i don't think he should hear. 


my son is going on 19 months old in a few days, and he already loves katy perry, his favorite song is teenage dream, and he likes to dance to trey songz bottoms up and usher's OMG. well actually he hasn't heard those songs in a while, but he used to when he was nine months. but that's besides the point..


when i was 7 or 8 i was listening to things like spice girls, hanson, bsb, *nsync, britney spears, and christina aguleria. i didn't realize until maybe 4 years ago what i was actually singing. the boy bands weren't as bad as some of the songs i was listening to by christina, britney, or spice girls. but again... i didn't care, and my mom still let me listen to them. all i have to say is i turned out just fine. 


now, i know when i was like 2 or 3 i was repeating the words to a bob and tom show about lesbians in plaid pants.. and my mom stopped listening to that, because you know that's way out of line for me to say, but i soon stopped repeating that. 

when i watch tv, i watch a lot of the kids shows, because it's what i have always watched, i don't really watch many other shows, because i never know what i really will like.. i know that's sad isn't it? but when i do watch shows that are more for my age, i let noah watch them too. because i mean.. when i was his age, i was watching the freaking simpsons!! and to this day, that's still one of my favorite shows, and again.. i turned out JUST FINE. 


i believe having a talk with my son and telling him, "you may listen to that, but you can only listen to it in our house.." and talking to him about how it's not a good song for him to sing in public and all that, and as he gets older start explaining songs to him... i think that's better. this is just my way of parenting. this also lets him choose what kind of music he likes and doesn't like. 


i just don't see the point in hiding things like that from him, when i KNOW he will hear them eventually. 


he's a curious kid, so i know he'll ask me all sorts of things, 
like: what's this mean? what's that about? and all that.. and i'll tell him.. well i'll tell him in little kids terms.. so he doesn't run around saying things like "booze" or "sex" because he's still way too little to understand that.. :p


i'm not saying i don't teach him the cute little songs that he should learn like ABCs and Itsy Bitsy Spider, because i do. he hears those songs more than other songs.. he loves to dance to his ABCs and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star (: it's SOOO adorable!! (: he also loves theme songs to Handy Manny, Special Agent OSO, Mickey Mouse Clubhouse, and Go Diego Go. So he's on a pretty good track, i just listen to anything and everything in the car with him, because sometimes on our long drive to school, i just need a moment to wind down from the busy day we just had, and music is the only way i'll wind down and calm down before school. 


also as a side note, when they cuss in songs.. i just block it out so he can't hear it. because he's at the stage where he repeats the most awkward worst word he can.. instead of repeating "bunny" or "shoe" so when he says something that sounds even remotely close to a curse word, i change his word and say something cute so he says that instead. (: 


xx -
hope

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